You’re going to write a song with that title. When Seth lets you borrow his guitar, actually practice it so that you can put the music together. Who am I kidding, we don’t practice, even now. This is the year you finally learn about death and how closely it can affect you. Just breathe, you’re going to make it through. I know it’s hard to stop crying knowing that they’re gone, but you are going to have such amazing experiences through their deaths. You are going to meet people and get to know people and your life will change. It’s that circle of life thing.
This is the year you find the college of your dreams and you think you meet the man of them as well. Well, you’ve met him, but this is the year he truly meets you. You’re going to hurt, and you’re going to cry, and you’re going to look back and be extremely embarrassed by your actions, but don’t try to stop them. Don’t block him off like you always do. Love is scary, but it is so amazing, and no matter what happens, what you two had was real. And no one can take that away from you (and trust me, many will try).
You have come so far from where you were in 7th grade, but I know you’re still insecure. Don’t be afraid of what is out there for you, but don’t be afraid to push some experiences away. Don’t ever compromise yourself or your beliefs for anyone. Stay strong on the path that leads you towards your future, and your husband. Facing judgement from your peers sucks, but it’s going to be so much worse to face God’s judgement at the end when look back on when you consciously made those bad decisions. He knows you.
Someday, God’s going to lead you to the guy who is perfect for you. He might have already. We wonder about that every day. And it’s okay to just wait for him. You don’t have to rush into anything. But also, go with your gut, and if you like a guy, tell him – even if you don’t want to marry him, have the guts to tell him anyways.
Just generally have the guts. Things will tear you down and you will lose them a bit, but you have to stay strong and have the guts to do what you need and want to do.
You’re beautiful. And you are loved by so many people. I love you. I love us. I know that life seems worthless and pointless sometimes, but I tell you, it is beautiful. So. Beautiful. And you are part of the reason why. The world would be less beautiful if you were not in it. Don’t ever forget that.