I am writing this as a nearly 50 year old.Do not alter the path that I have taken. Life does get better. You find love and happiness within the family you create. I have no regrets about what I have done. I have made mistakes and become a better person because of them.
My only advice I have is be kind to yourself. You are not the cause of anyone’s ill fortune in this world no matter what they tell you.
Enjoy your future years as I have enjoyed my past.
Lots of love